I've recently came across a blog of someone I knew from Brent. She and a couple of people from Brent had started out a indie band named "Save The Sea Monkeys!" http://www.myspace.com/savetheseamonkehz
Their music was really good. I mean real good for people my age. It wasn't hardcore or those music you scream out loud just for fun. Their music truly had candor and honesty to it. And then I wondered what I was doing while she was doing something this cool. It was nice to see how she was doing what she really wanted in her life. We used to be in the same school band: she played the french horn and I played the flute and yet she was at this point in our lives, starting out a band a whole new solo project called "Dining with the Bolsheviks Music" http://www.myspace.com/diningwiththebolsheviksmusic
Today was a tough day for me. My grades came out for my first semester at college.
Many C's a couple of B's... So now I am sitting at my computer wondering what went wrong in my life. Had I done anything to fix it? Now. No emotions. No motivations whatsoever. I watched Juno yesterday. Supposedley "heart-warming". I didn't feel anything. NOTHING. I just sat there and watched. The plot, the character, the story. But I didn't feel it like I used to.
Anyhow I'm not here to regret my life. No more regrets.
My life has changed much. I was mentally strong and passionate before. I had a dream and a goal and that was the only reason why I cared nothing about what others had to say. Nothing mattered. What mattered was my dream that pumped blood deep down my heart.
And now that dream flew away. I didn't know. I didn't know that it was slowly creeping away into the thin air. One day I woke up and discovered myself with no passion or dream.
Cut to the right point. I envy the group and the solo project. I love people who live
for what they truly want. Hats off to ya guys!
Their music was really good. I mean real good for people my age. It wasn't hardcore or those music you scream out loud just for fun. Their music truly had candor and honesty to it. And then I wondered what I was doing while she was doing something this cool. It was nice to see how she was doing what she really wanted in her life. We used to be in the same school band: she played the french horn and I played the flute and yet she was at this point in our lives, starting out a band a whole new solo project called "Dining with the Bolsheviks Music" http://www.myspace.com/diningwiththebolsheviksmusic
Today was a tough day for me. My grades came out for my first semester at college.
Many C's a couple of B's... So now I am sitting at my computer wondering what went wrong in my life. Had I done anything to fix it? Now. No emotions. No motivations whatsoever. I watched Juno yesterday. Supposedley "heart-warming". I didn't feel anything. NOTHING. I just sat there and watched. The plot, the character, the story. But I didn't feel it like I used to.
Anyhow I'm not here to regret my life. No more regrets.
My life has changed much. I was mentally strong and passionate before. I had a dream and a goal and that was the only reason why I cared nothing about what others had to say. Nothing mattered. What mattered was my dream that pumped blood deep down my heart.
And now that dream flew away. I didn't know. I didn't know that it was slowly creeping away into the thin air. One day I woke up and discovered myself with no passion or dream.
Cut to the right point. I envy the group and the solo project. I love people who live
for what they truly want. Hats off to ya guys!
