My latest obsession with Mika

A lot of people might not know much about Mika. People will most probably know him after hearing the song "Happy Ending"
Mika's actual name is Mica Penniman and he was born in Lebanon to an American father and a Lebanese mother. His family had to move to Paris due to the war when he was one years old. At nine, he moved to London where he has been living up to this day. His days in London were not welcoming; he suffered sever bullying and dyslexia. Later on, he attended the Royal College of Music where he listened to much classical/opera music.
I cannot pin-point one favorite song of his. His music is very diverse, alot of them sounding gay others sounding depressing. Love today, Grace Kelly, Billy Brown, Big Girls, Over My Shoulder, The Only Lonely One, Relax Take It Easy, Any Other World, and last but not the least Happy Ending.
Songs like Grace Kelly, Billy Brown, Love today sound extremely gay but the lyrics are not. Even in the song Happy Ending, although the title of the song sounds joyful, "no love no joy no glory" explains the gloominess of the lyrics.
Grace Kelly is a song Mika wrote out of frustration over the record company who agreed to sign the contract only when Mika did more R n B.
In Love Today, Mika is desperate for love quoting "love love me".
The reason I like Mika so much is that despite his success, gay music, and super-optimism there's a sadness behind his eyes so deep that shows the 24years of his flamboyant life.

To do list for August

Okay, so I've been lazing off for the past couple of...................YEARS..fine i admit it
Prolly time for me to get back on my feet again, shape myself up.
So I made a list of things to do in August

To-do list:
1. Sign up for Arabic lessons
2. Study for TOEFL test on the 24th
3. Review Economics for re-test
4. Review Sociology for re-test
5. Work-out every morning

Wanna-do list:
1. Get driver's license
2. Get MOS license (just to get it over with)
3. Get 990 on TOEIC
4. Brush up on my Chinese
5. Get a job/teach English
6. Preview Politics
7. Learn what is required for foreign exchange student (TOEIC, TOEFL, SAT, GRE?)
8. Learn a new language perhaps French or Spanish

Discovered new music

I've recently came across a blog of someone I knew from Brent. She and a couple of people from Brent had started out a indie band named "Save The Sea Monkeys!" http://www.myspace.com/savetheseamonkehz
Their music was really good. I mean real good for people my age. It wasn't hardcore or those music you scream out loud just for fun. Their music truly had candor and honesty to it. And then I wondered what I was doing while she was doing something this cool. It was nice to see how she was doing what she really wanted in her life. We used to be in the same school band: she played the french horn and I played the flute and yet she was at this point in our lives, starting out a band a whole new solo project called "Dining with the Bolsheviks Music" http://www.myspace.com/diningwiththebolsheviksmusic


Today was a tough day for me. My grades came out for my first semester at college.
Many C's a couple of B's... So now I am sitting at my computer wondering what went wrong in my life. Had I done anything to fix it? Now. No emotions. No motivations whatsoever. I watched Juno yesterday. Supposedley "heart-warming". I didn't feel anything. NOTHING. I just sat there and watched. The plot, the character, the story. But I didn't feel it like I used to.

Anyhow I'm not here to regret my life. No more regrets.
My life has changed much. I was mentally strong and passionate before. I had a dream and a goal and that was the only reason why I cared nothing about what others had to say. Nothing mattered. What mattered was my dream that pumped blood deep down my heart.
And now that dream flew away. I didn't know. I didn't know that it was slowly creeping away into the thin air. One day I woke up and discovered myself with no passion or dream.

Cut to the right point. I envy the group and the solo project. I love people who live
for what they truly want. Hats off to ya guys!

Isn't this truly disturbing..

I came across this picture of a dead dolphin in the Amazon. This dolphin goes right into the victims list of global warming along with the people from Tuvalu, Sri Lanka, Bangladesh and etc,.

Remember me

"It is no accident that you are reading this. I am making black marks on white paper. These marks are my thoughts, and although I do not know who you are reading this now, in some way the lines of our lives have intersected... For the length of these few sentences, we meet here.

It is no accident that you are reading this. This moment has been waiting for you, I have been waiting for you. Remember me. "

-Duane Michals-

Socially Different?

When you walk by and bump into someone do you just walk by or do you say excuse me?
When you're hit by someone in Seoul, don't expect an apology.

This happens a lot in the subway especially in the morning when everyone's getting to work.
Sometimes they'll stump on your foot, american-football-tackle you, and literally kill you.
You must then do the same to them. Do not expect an apology, nor offer one.

When I see people bumping into me which clearly is a situation they should be sorry about
I scream "What the fuck is wrong with you??? Say you're fucking sorry you
asshole!"

Well, I'd at least like to do that. But all those words are just inside my head and at the tip of my lips.

To be back home, to feel lost at the same time

So it's been around a year or two since I've moved back to Seoul, Korea.

Do you know what it feels like to be back home, but to feel lost at the same time?